Manic writer

Are you a manic writer?

This isn’t to condemn or poke fun at someone that suffers with manic episodes.  As I encounter my own struggles with depression and anxiety I find that up and down is a perfect way to describe my life.  A roller coaster that kicks me off and pulls me back on with no direction or routine.

I go through these phases where I’m so enthused at the idea of writing. I take on any writing job that comes my way and happily punch away at my keyboard enticing readers in.

Then there’s these phases where the mere idea of writing causes my brain to freeze, and all creativity is sucked out on the dark horse it rode in on.

Since I was a little girl I loved to write.

I wrote my first book about an ostrich when I was maybe 8.

Writing is my outlet. But then there’s these phases where life is too crazy. My brain is too foggy that I can’t seem to find the energy to write anything but my reminders on a sticky note.

I’m simply a manic writer. Up and down. No in between.

Any project I take on I dive in.

All in.

It’s all or nothing. Then it seems a few weeks pass and I’m onto the next. But I always come back to writing.

And when I do. I’m reminded of how great it feels to jot down some thoughts.

Happy Wednesday.

Danielle

 

Tranquil

I walked into McDonald’s today to let my kids play indoors because of the unbearable smoke from the California fires.

I could feel my anxiety and agitation growing as more people lined up behind me.  The cashier possibly was new, or just hated her job.  Not sure.

But her rudeness immediately started to agitate me.

By the time I had gotten our drink and french fries and sat down with the kids.  I could feel my anxiety taking over my entire being.  It was too loud.  There was someone who stunk.  Then there was the fact that a grown man was lurking in the slide.

I was appalled that not one parent had demanded he get out.  So I mentally prepared myself and went up to the play structure and demanded he get out.

He did.  And the alcohol he had consumed was very apparent.

By the time that fiasco was done I could feel my anxiety slowly creeping.  But having kids I don’t want them to see my own anxieties, I don’t want my personal feelings to reflect on them.

Thank God I always have my Young Living Tranquil roll on in my bag for occasions like this.  I marked one X with the oil on my left wrist, and another X on my right wrist.  And one more down the base of my neck.  When I’m really anxious I will count to ten while touching my thumb to each of my fingers until that suffocating feel dissipates.

I’m not sure why I have anxiety.  I’d guess it’s due to my genetics.  Most everyone in my family struggles with anxiety or depression.  But I also think this world can be to fast paced for people like me.  I’m an old soul, that prefers the company of good people as opposed to a bunch of strangers.  And I need a lot of alone time.  And sometimes that’s hard with two young kids at home.

Once I had ditched my prescribed anti-anxiety/anti-depressant last year I had to find a way to help when my anxiety starts spiraling out of control.

Once I started using Young Living Essential Oils I felt a positive change in my entire body.  Everyday I drink my water with lemon oil.

Diffuse different oils throughout the house.  If I’m feeling unmotivated and depressed I tend to diffuse Tangerine.  It’s citrus scent gives me the kick in my ass I need to get moving.

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When I get that suffocating, overwhelmed anxious feel I have a few different oils I use, but tend to consistently use Tranquil by Young Living.

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I used to think this essential oil potion was a trend, that there couldn’t possibly be any healing in it.  But going back to Biblical times essential oils were used even then.

So here are just a few tips and tricks that I use on a daily basis to maintain a healthy mental state.

  • Exercise, it’s a must.  Sometimes I feel to tired to workout, but I force myself to.  This is where Ningxia comes in to my rescue.  It gives me a clean energy that doesn’t affect my anxiety like caffeine does.
  • Getting out and about.
  • Setting a goal once a week to try something new, even if it’s as simple as pumping my own gas at a new gas station.
  • Drinking lots of water
  • NO caffeine, like ever.
  • Eating a healthy diet, no fast food or processed junk.
  • Prayer
  • Physical labor around the homestead.
  • Using Young Living Essential Oils by using them topically, internally, and diffusing them throughout the house.

These are some of the things I do daily.  They don’t always work and sometimes I slip up and drink caffeine and find myself spiraling into anxiety quickly.

How do you combat anxiety and depression?