My husband and I were having a debate this evening.
And the topic of our youngest being a wanderer and our concerns for her as parents came up.
We both don’t want to be overbearing, or controlling but with a child with an Autism diagnosis the truth behind kids with Autism wandering off is it actually is a big scary thing for a parent.
I know for both of us even on a daily basis we worry about her. She wanders far less now that she has gotten older, but she also has the sweetest most trusting little soul. Sometimes she gets lost in thought and will wander into the arms of just about anyone.
She has minimal boundaries with people she doesn’t know.
We talk about strangers. We try to instill safety into her teachings but sometimes when lost in thought or what we call zonked somewhere else she wanders off.
And it’s fucking scary for a parent.
There’s no hiding behind that truth.
One day I picked HBE up after ballet and noticed her zonked expression as she wandered off towards the door even after I called her name and waved to show where we were waiting.
When they are away from me I get pretty bad anxiety. I worry probably more than most parents.
But for an understandable reason. I think.
I hope as she grows older and socially matures I hope my worries grow less. And with age comes a maturity and understanding for danger.
Her wandering goes in phases.
She has an ability to slip off within what feels like seconds leaving us all in a panic looking for her.
Our property is fenced in which gives me a huge piece of mind.
But I’m grateful she doesn’t wander daily. I don’t think my nerves could take it.